The damsel in distress at work…

20 seconds…
I’ve wasted 20 precious paid moments of my life staring blankly at the monitor, and if not for my seatmate who repeatedly snapped his fingers in front of me just to catch my attention, maybe that time counter will still go on and on and on for God knows how long.


I don’t know… I’m not feeling sleepy… It’s just that… I’m… I’m lost somewhere… Deep in my thoughts, or maybe I must say, I am more lost inside my broken heart… What the heck! When did I start to be like this? When did I learn to mix my personal life with my work…? Maybe just yesterday… when everything about us started to mess up.


It’s never my style to get out of focused, or to think of something else while I’m at work.
Most of the time, I try to stop and cry for a while, compose myself and bounce back afterwards. But this time, I can’t figure out a way to keep my hands on one thing and forget about the rest just for the meantime. Why? I’m thinking about him! There is nothing more important to me than that. Or so I think.


I know it’s wrong…
As a team member, I am of course expected to uplift the spirit of my workmates, but how can I do that when I can’t even bring myself to sanity. As an employee, I’m expected to use my resources, especially my time for the company’s benefit, but I’m beginning to forget how to do that too.


I know this too shall pass… When would that be? I don’t really know. All I know is, I’m not okay and I have to live with it until such time that I can laugh and blab like nothing happened.

Birthday Party with Officemates! :))

Thank you, from the bottom of my heart. *wink! :)

Okay, it's gonna be a long thank you message for my officemates.. so bear with me! :)

To my team Hapontukin,

thank you sa isang masayang birthday party para sa akin at sa kapwa ko mga september babies..

thank you sa pagpunta kahit parepareho tayong walang maayos na tulog. haha. :)

JESSA,

thank you sa balloons, at sa pagdecorate sa bahay namin, wala ka talagang katulad. ang kkuuullleeeet. haha. salamat sa pagudyok ng sample! sample! at batobatopek.. naubos natin yung pangalawang bote. ampf. XD

Cheeeeessyyy MaC!

thank you sa GIANT birthday card.. haha. natuwa talaga ako dun, anlaki eh. ahaha. pasensya na kung hindi ko kayo pinaglunch at hindi ko kayo pinatulog.. mabait ako eh, alam nyo naman yun. :P

ATE LEI!

wwweeehh.. sa aming official nurse cook! haha. salamat po sa pagbubusog sa aming lahat, yuuummm.. next time ulet. hala! haha. salamat sa mga medical advice, ngayon pati cooking advice pwede na rin humingi sayo. :D

BIJIN!

aaww.. sayang, di gumana yung cd.. di ka tuloy nakapagdance number, i mean, hindi tuloy tayo nakapagkaraoke. haha. benta talaga yung photographic memory mo, hindi tayo naligaw! haha. :) salamat sa pamblow ng balloons. haha.

Kabirthday ko, RAIN!

haha. yyiiikkeee.. haapppyy birthday satin. buti na lang, maaraw naman, para maiba, palagi na lang maulan pag birthday natin eh. ;)) thank you sa pagpunta, sabi ko na eh, di mo ako matitiis. :))

Future team lead, TEK!

hahaha.. kinabahan ako sayo, kala ko maliligaw ka na. haha. salamat din sa pagpunta, buti na lang hindi natuloy yung lakad mo.. hihi.. sinabotahe ko talaga yun, para makasama ka samin. haha.

singer/rapper JHOE!

ooohh yeah, may hidden talent ka talaga eh, ang galing galing! :)) salamat sa mga simpleng banat na palaging nakakapanggising samin..

Cartoonist, ArnArn.

THANK YOU.. keep on sleeping talaga. haha. :))yaan mo, walang problema dun. :D

Seatmate, BOWGZ!

haha. gisingin mo na lang ako pagnakakatulog na naman ako ah. haha. :)

Rakistang Hal!

haha. sayang dapat talaga tinugtugan mo kami ng isang malupet. ahe.. salamat sa paghatid sa kanila hanggang antiplolo.. haha. teka, hinatid mo ba? haha. :))

Intel Inside, ATE NERI!

haha. nakikiATE talaga ako. haha. :P salamat sa maagang pagcomment sa FB. haha. ang bilis eh. toinks. :D next time, party party o kaya bowling naman. :))

ALVIN,

sabi ni ate neri, hinintay ka kaya namin sa labas, hindi nga sila umuwi hanggang wala ka eh. hahah. XD

andayaaaa... hhmpf. pero okay lang yan.

sa hindi nakapunta..

ASH!

Next time sa inyo naman daw. haha. :)

kuya ARVIN!

wala nang spaghetti eh, sorry naman. :))BM na lang treat ko. haha. XD

ayan, natapos din. ahaha. thank you talaga guys. I love you all.. salamat sa tatlong linggo ng pagsasama sama. malapit na matapos training pero sana masundan pa to. :)

*cheeeeers to us!

To laugh hard is to risk appealing the fool..

It's just my third week at work but I guess, we're now beginning to risk showing everyone who we really are and how we wanted to be treated in our office. It's like slowly peeling down our defenses, our pretense, just so we can show our genuine self and be loved and respected for who we are.

TO LAUGH IS TO RISK APPEALING THE FOOl..

quoted from my favorite poem, Dare to Take a Risk..

Yes, I laugh hard, I sneeze, I yawn, I talk fast, I grin, and I giggle the way I want to, but I don't mind. I don't care if I would look naive or dumb, but I admit it when I don't know something, share my knowledge when I do, and accept criticism when it's due. In this way, my officemates will begin to personally know me, and love me and hate me but still accept me just the same. I am lucky to have them, to be excited to go to work because I know I will laugh away our working hours or maybe sleep and eat and yawn with them until it's time to flash our badge out of our building.

I'm afraid that I'm once again about to take one of the biggest risks in my life -- to love. But I love them, I love the absurdity of what we are doing, I love the variety of our age, our out of tune music jam, the praising songs when it's break time, and of course I love our brief walk on our way home.

I know these things will change sooner than I wanted, but I just want to relish this realization that indeed, God always surround me with so many awesome people and always use me as His vessel of blessings for those people around me..